Still in Chains

It has been a month since school life was over. I finished my Bachelor's Degree without any bang. Not even a thud or thump or whatever you call it. It was a point in my life where I was torn if I would be happy that I already graduated or sad that I wasn't able to glide through the stage of success called the Commencement Rites. It isn't a complicated story actually.

Final year, final semester in college and I blew it by not accomplishing one important part - thesis. Damnit. Each time I think about it, I get pissed off. You know why? Wanna know why? Because I was stupid, naive, and and idiot. Why, you knew that of course! Duh!

Sometimes I curse Facebook. I think it was the bigger reason as to why I am like this now. Well, not Facebook per se, but my addiction to it. Ugh! I know you know the feeling. Now, because of Facebook, I see a lot of my friends going on and about their vacations here, vacations there, vacations everywhere! It's like I'm being punished by the same reason why I failed. What irony!

And worse of all, I cannot go ask my parents about me going somewhere with friends without asking money. That's the embarrassing part. I feel like I'm still in chains. I feel like a leashed dog. I cannot basically complain about everything because they have something that's backing them up- my failure.

Now, I'm thinking about finishing the thesis once and for all. Yes, I've been thinking about it. I've only been thinking about it. I haven't done anything significant yet, really.

I'm lazy. And it's increasing exponentially. God save my soul!