Actually, my heart feels really, really, really, REALLY heavy right now. So if I die one of this days, you may want to consider the weight of my heart instead of some illness.
After watching each comedy movie, the problems become to sink in. Just like the waves of the sea that come crashing down on the rocks whenever there is a storm.
We all have problems, yes, but I take everything into heart. You see me as a happy person in general, but inside I'm having a battle with myself.
My biggest problem as of the moment is whether or not to take the board exams this November. Mom has been scolding me again since I've been too lax lately; watching movies and stuff. I then thought of my actions. There are consequences but I just wanna forget all of those.
I am not a drinker that is why I indulge in watching movies; getting in the character, travelling the world while comfortably sitting on the sofa, laugh like there is no tomorrow, and just sitting there thinking of nothing but having fun.
I also am the type where even if I am the one whose back is already against the wall I still cheer people up. I don't want anyone in my surroundings to feel bad, you know. Even if I don't like the person, I always do my best to strike conversation. I don't want to build grudge in my heart and I've managed to make it into another feeling. That feeling is making my heart heavy.
Just a few minutes ago, Apple once again gave me a message regarding our relationship. She's having a hard time. While I really don't care about what other people say about me, she, on the other hand, does. She just cares so much about other people that she even doesn't know what will make her happy anymore.
Am I just rambling? I'm talking rubbish, aren't I?
That is just what I'm feeling right now. All mixed up about the not so trivial things in life.
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