Four days has passed since the announcement that a final day of reckoning will be given to the students that failed last semester's STEEL DESIGN course. And that day has come to a close. That day is tomorrow.
I have prepared for this upcoming major event in my life for four days already. I have studied well; photocopied an entire book (which is illegal); i have asked questions to classmates and teachers alike; and I've prayed like I've never prayed before. These things I have done will be tested tomorrow. How far have I really gone in terms of studying this subject? How far has my faith gone ever since the news that I failed and that we can take another shot in this subject? Tomorrow is the final date.
As usual, I psyched myself for this exam. I've encouraged myself over and over again that I should study well. But during the final day of my studies, all energy in the world suddenly goes down like a water in a glass drank by a thirsty man. I keep on wondering why that happens every time. It seems like my subconscious mind is telling me that I'm ready. That I can take the exam head on with no blood spilled. However, that is really not the case. I mean, I'm still scared. Although I already said to myself that everything's gonna be alright and that I will pass this course 100%, I'm still scared. I'm just a baby thrown into a den of hungry dogs ready to devour anything in front of them.
I opened and read several books pertaining to Steel Design. It's working, yes, but only for a little while. This crazy hormones of mine is not really helping. I can't remember something for too long! Well, a friend of mine said that masturbating can cause memory gap. Therefore, I haven't done that for quite a time now. And I hope this time, everything will flow smoothly.
God, help me through this! Our fates will be changed forever with the result of tomorrow's exam. And I want a good one. But dear God, whatever happens, may I break it or make it, I'll still continue to love you and your wonderful creations.
I can do this!
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